Spirit is Tangible

When working with clients, many energies show themselves to me. Family that has crossed into the afterlife will give proof of their existence beyond the veil, but also will the very global and more widely know Deities that continue to exert their support for us in our human experience. Mother Mary, the God Ra, Jesus, St. Francis, Quan Yin, Norse God Odin, etc. all forms of a loving presence. What is spectacular, is many times these energies will prove their active presence in our lives.

A while back, I had posted my experience with Mother Mary on my Facebook page. I was in meditation one evening and had a profound experience with her. I have no religious background and yet there she was, in my mediation, holding me to her chest and comforting me, permeating my whole being with peace and love. About 10 minutes had passed when she lifted me off her chest and kissed my brow. I thought, ‘wow – what a beautiful experience’ but that can’t possibly, have actually, been her. Nice vision though.

The very next morning I was walking with my husband and boys along the beach. Spirit spoke into my right ear, directing me about 30 feet down the beach and to the left. “Go over there, behind those stones. There is a message for you” So I followed. As I got to the area there was some burnt wood and tucked under the edge a small piece of paper. “there” they said. “turn it over”. This little, two inch piece of paper, had a very small quote of the Apostle’s Creed: “who was conceived by the Virgin Mary” – I wept there in the sun, deeply touched by her grace and her desire to get past my doubt and show me how tangible she was.



When Mary presents herself, and it is not often, the energy is gentle and honest. The vibration is uniquely her. Yesterday Mother Mary presented herself behind my client and shared some information. This was beautifully, validated by my client. I had shared what Mother Mary offered and I was grateful she had come again.

This morning I had a beautiful, new friend come to the Sanctuary, Maria Cocqulo Manna. I was sharing with her a sage bundle so she could perform a ceremony for a friend. We shared coffee and some treats and she said, “Oh, I brought a gift for you. I talk to St. Anthony and this morning because I knew I needed to bring something to you. I asked St. Anthony, could he please help guide me to what you needed. So my mother gave this to me several years ago and I know it needs to come to you.”

I opened this beautiful gift bag and unfolded the tissue paper. In my hands lay the Virgin Mary full of water from Lourdes! Again, tears of amazement and joy!


What we need you to know, Mary and I, is that Spirit is tangible. The Divine, Source energy, God, is personal and is wanting to partner with you in your life journey. Meditate, pray, trust and take one step after the other knowing you are supported and you are held by many forms of love!




Your are infinitely important, beautiful and useful so relax!

Stand whole and grateful in your work! Do not fear. Do not compare. Do not worry. If you are participating in the many, beautiful modalities of healing or spirit work in any capacity . . . . enjoy yourself and share! Do not clutch. Do not pretend to own and do not restrict yourself and the very thing you love, by allowing the fearful ego to run the show.


Cameron-Gray-Art3Our very humanity has spent hundreds of years attempting to control and contain and repackage the messages coming from Source, emanating from Divine energy. We have religions of all types, belief systems with lists of rules. We have hateful, spiteful, painful warring over what is RIGHT, BEST or TRUTH. All of it so incredibly limiting. The Divine is expansive, unlimited and infinitely beautiful!


For many years now I have been actively working as a medium and spiritual conduit. I am always growing and always learning. I communicate with loved ones that have crossed, do paranormal investigations, use essential oils, create lip balms, pull oracle and medicine cards, express animal energies, give workshops and all of it driven by this beautiful, unique relationship between the Divine and little ole me. I feel so blessed to have had wonderful teachers both here and in spirit realm and wonderful friends with which to share all of these exciting pathways.


Confidentiality is sacred to me as well as honesty – they pretty much play equal roles in my life. Because of that many people contact me to sort sensitive things out. In this beautiful community of light workers and spiritual seekers (and we have a very large community) some have struggled with others attempts to belittle, compare or undermine the work that they do. I have also watched others publicly make ‘this is better than that’ comparisons in the power or strength of an energetic healing modality. Often shamelessly, like a Coke vs. Pepsi commercial. I rarely experience these things myself but I have had a few unpleasant moments where my practice has been questioned by someone doing the same work or have had some copy literally what I am doing, sometimes word for word, and pass it off as their own.


Now our small, human, frightened self immediately says – Hey! That was mine! Or felt slighted by someone openly belittling their favorite practice, only to make theirs seem more powerful. Many have felt the threat of having work taken away from them by these attempts. Sometimes people are unaware of their selfish and frightened actions and others still are completely aware but feel justified.


Here’s the tough part . . . they are not the problem. LET GO! The moment I engage in feeling slighted (and yes it is often the first natural response) I have grabbed hold of the monkeys tail. My ego has bought into the idea that somehow I own what I do. I narrow into what’s mine and what’s yours. We are working on behalf of Source, we are working with Energy, we are working with intuition and connection to our higher self, which in turn is a beautiful part of the whole. So celebrate!! You can set boundaries. Boundaries are healthy and necessary. There are people I simply will not engage with but I harbor them not a moment of ill will. I just know my personal limit. But on top of that I feel joy in the fact that spirit is using them in their life, in their circle to serve great purpose too. Celebrate the life of others always, even when you disagree. What we do energetically is as important as what we do in our 3D reality.


Instead of responding with fear when someone else sets up shop doing the same thing you do . . . celebrate! The Divine just found one more person to channel through what is needed in their own unique way. If someone copy’s what you said or what you did celebrate! Know that Source is just finding a way to reach more people. It’s about the message not the messenger. If someone is not authentically making their own communion with their higher self or spirit then it is they who suffer not you. Send them love and hold hope that one day they make their own wonderful unique connection!


For those of you feeling the need to compare – just stop. You diminish the very beauty and light you are attempting to work with or work on behalf of. No one modality is any better than any other. The Divine speaks many languages and all things in the realm of sprit have perfect timing and purpose. These modalities are all like letters of the alphabet all coming together in different ways expressing something new each time. Or like the paint on a palate, individual in colour, until they are put onto canvas and cohesively create a beautiful image! Reiki, Cranial Sacral, Sekhem, B.E.S.T, Reconnective Healing, Past life regression, Hypnosis, Tapping . . . and the list goes on. All of these amazing and powerful ways for Spirit to help us make the transitions necessary for our growth – or maybe even just give us some comfort.


If you make a product, sell your product and be joyful. Don’t worry about what others are doing – CELEBRATE what you are doing! If you practice a modality that resonates with your being and you find satisfying or exciting results, keep practicing it and be joyful! Who is meant for you, will come. What is meant for you will come . . . when you remain open. Celebrate that you are participating in the co-creation of transformation with spirit and your client, in this particular moment, on this particular day. If they stay your client wonderful, if they move on to another practitioner or another modality celebrate! They are listening to their own inner call. TRUST, for heaven sakes, that Spirit knows what it’s doing and just relax, enjoy and be in the flow of loving others from your very unique paradigm. Just be uniquely you in a wonderful dance with Source because you are infinitely important, beautiful and useful! xo

On Black Wings


I must have looked like a loon, laughing that hard, alone in my car. Archangel Azriel gave me great reason. I had just come from lunch today with my beautiful soul sister Pam. Her and I have a wonderful spiritual connection and have been able at times to see the same energies in spirit realm. Here is a background to one such moment:

I run a women’s meditation group and we use this time when called upon to offer healing. A friend was ill and so on this particular night we placed my Reiki table in the center of the room, envisioned with intention, him stretched out in front of us. We then provided distance Reiki to offer whatever he needed at that time. A few moments in I saw these large black wings rise up from behind me. I was unnerved as I see many things but not black wings. I am very used to Archangel Michael and Uriel and other dimensional beings of light. I pushed the image away, yet again the wings rose up as if they were mine and stretched large into the room. Again I released the image. I did not share the experience so as not to distress the others. We moved then into our meditation night and after our first collective meditation Pam says “just before we began I saw these large black wings rise up and like a dome, cover the room.” Well I nearly dropped – I believe my reply was something to the effect of “YES! What the hell was that?” then I shared my vision. We took to Google – I typed in Angel with black wings . . . all I saw were dark images and talk of fallen angels. I just knew this was not what we had seen as there was only peace in the room. I then typed in Archangel with black wings and this is what came:

 ‘The Archangel Azriel’

 The archangels were formed from him. He is the only Angel with black wings and has no halo for his light is within him. His hair is black and glistens with that light seeming almost silver. And he wears a black cloak filled with the glowing stars of galaxies.

As the Archangel of Spirit, he is the one to take you Home at your transition, cutting with his silver scythe, the silver cord that binds your spirit to physical form and guides you towards the Light. He is therefore known as the Angel of Death. He is also at the transition into physical life, at your birth. Also Master of the Akasic Records.

 As Pam and I sat recounting this moment I looked up Azriel’s name again and re-read the meaning. What astounded me this time was that most of what Azriel represents has been part of my own personal experience. When I was first thrust into this journey of mediumship and I was dealing with the issues of protecting myself and my energy It was suggested that I surround myself in a bubble of light. This never worked for me. Many people over the last several years have heard me say that, instead, I feel the light rise from inside me – it starts in my solar-plexus and I feel it expand until it fills my whole body and then I watch it extend about 3 feet out from and around me! (his light is within him) Several years back in meditation I saw a dark cloak cover me hood and all and inside this cloak was the universe! I have seen it again several times. (cloak filled with stars and galaxys) My hair has been a dark brown bordering on black through most of my life. I am in my mid 40’s and decided to not dye my gray away but to embrace it and make it shine so I use Silver shampoo! Lol I was told by a medium in my first few years of the work that when I sleep I help transition people to the afterlife. This has certainly manifested in my conscious awareness and now occurs not only when I sleep – I have the wonderful privilege of listening to some of those in spirit who have not made their way yet for various reasons and assisted in making the light visible for those who are ready to release themselves from this plane of existence.

So here comes my outburst of hilarity. I dropped Pam off at home and was on my way to get the boys. I was pondering in my mind my connection with Azriel and I thought – “Raven has been paramount in my journey so far as the communicator between this realm and the after life and I have shifted into his form so many times – I wonder if the black wings of the bird have been so important to me because of Azriel?” at this point I decided to turn on the radio on:

Says she talks to angels.

They call her out by her name.

Oh yeah, she talks to angels.

Says they call her out by her name.”

 “Oh I love this song – I have not heard it for a long time” It was a few lyrics before I realized what I was listening to and I had a little giggle – considering I was contemplating Angels I thought this was cute until the song ended . . . .

DJ says, “ . . . great song by the Counting CROWES”



May I make a suggestion?


May I make a suggestion? Let people in, let them way in. Fill your life up with others. Take the risk. Yes, 100%, take time for solitude but live a life full of people. All kinds, to varying degrees of relationship. Here’s why . . . I ‘blew a nut’ this morning.

I behaved badly. I was a Yelling, RAGEFUL mess. No belittling or name calling – just in full tantrum over someone else’s behaviour and its perceived impact on me. Only here’s the thing – its never, never, ever them! You might really, really want it to be them but it never is. This is a fact I am always and sometimes quite painfully aware of.

Relationships are wellness barometers with faces. Some we love, some make us cringe but all significant in that they give us ample opportunity to learn and develop our personalities as well as recognize the growth as we continue in them. When there is no person, place or thing to bump up against it is easy. There are a batch of unique issues with that, I am sure, but for the most part there is lack of conflict. Today, as a result of my ‘Losing it’ with one of these fine relationships, I was able to reflect and see what was really going on with me, but more importantly I was able to also see tremendous growth. Just mere moments after I escalated I apologized for my “loudness.” Not by saying “I’m sorry I was so loud, but when you . . .”.  Instead it was “I am very sorry I was so loud. It’s not appropriate or healthy and I don’t like it when I respond that way.” And then I let the silence be . . . . . . . . . . . . . without trying to appease any guilt in me, with blame. Here’s the other good news. Afterward, I did not allow the ego to take over and berate me, for the rest of the day. There was no internal, nasty dialogue that said what a terrible person I was for raising my voice like that, no consistent focus on self pity and self loathing to again detract from my responsibility in the situation. I’ve come a long way baby!
We are moment to moment blessed with the opportunity to reflect on and question the self.  Why am I responding with such anger? Hurt? Sadness? What is my part (there always is our part) and how could I have helped the situation? What is it about Bob or Susan or Rick that makes me feel so irritated or frustrated and why? What am I actually afraid of?
In all these relationships we get messy with each other. We get loud, we get hurt, we get scared and we behave in ways that make us say “oh crap, I wish I had done better than that.” Others may be rude, cold, self-centred and frustrating in a multitude of ways but it is only our internal dialogue and outer response that is the issue. We certainly have great joy in some of these relationships, but it is in these times of strife, that I can truly see where I am at, how far I have come and contemplate where I would like to see myself.
So let them in and do not fear. In such a Divine way the people in our lives reflect the truth of our behaviour back to us, mirroring both our ugly baggage and our radiant light.

Cherries and other yummy stuff!


Last night, 11:29 pm, I was preparing to have some ‘me’ time.

Heating pad?                        check!

Tea?                                     check!

Medicine cards?                   check!

iPhone?                                check!

Kids asleep?                        check!

Empty bladder?                   check!

Room to myself?            check!

After the scene was set, I crawled into bed. For me, some days, when I feel bedtime creeping close it’s as if I’m the Arctic Fox making my way towards a dry windless burrow in the middle of the wild frozen tundra. My movements are slow and calculated as I check for the safety of my surroundings and dream of the comfort I will enjoy after the hard labors of hunting and gathering in such a harsh environment.

I know, drama queen – right? You would think I was suffering. You would think my life hard. It’s not – not by ANY stretch. Yes, I’m a mother of three, have little in the way of monetary security but am totally blessed with an amazing husband, great kids and a network of friends to seriously envy! But, I’m sensitive – I mean really sensitive! I felt shame when I heard it growing up; “Oh, Debra (with the sound of exhaustion) you’re so dramatic!” “Oh, Debra (eye roll here) you’re so sensitive!”

Here’s the thing – it is because of this ‘sensitivity’ that I can see, hear and feel spirit. It is because my radar is a bit off center, which I am able to have experiences like the one to follow. I don’t often understand the how or why of it all; Spirit communication? Psychic ability? Remote viewing? Not important right now, really, but truly fascinating and I look forward to more being revealed.

So I get myself settled in last night and I think of my dear close friend Carolyn. I send her a text requesting her approval to focus on her and pull an Animal Medicine card. (I always ask permission, as it would be tantamount to pressing my face up against someone’s living room window and spying.)


“Absolutely – you can pull cards for me anytime!”

In preparation for pulling a medicine card I sit comfortably, back against my heating pad and headboard, I breathe deep. I focus on seeing the colors of my charka open; red, now orange, yellow, now green, blue, purple and now brilliant white! I see Carolyn now in this bright space of my meditation and right to the left of her head I see three little cherries with their stems attached. I open my eyes and think “Debra, you’re such a weirdo. Cherries? People are not eating cherries! It’s winter and that must be your imagination.” Now my critic can be quite the skeptic, and while on one hand I am glad for that (keeps me grounded) on the other hand it can make trusting information difficult. I don’t pull a card an instead, text back:


“Did you eat something with cherries? I saw cherries.”




“Did you get my photo?”


“Laughing my freaking a#$ off!”


“Made me smile ear to ear. Only candy I ate tonight!”

“You never fail to amaze me, my favorite super stalker!”


“Funny thing is I saw 3 cherries!! Stems and all!!”

Like I said – Yummy! It’s the topping on my cake; the cream cheese frosting! Life can be tough, cold and harsh. It is, at the same time, full of joy, opportunity and love; but beyond all the experiences that life, in this physical form holds, we have access to the great mystery of an expanded awareness, the awakening of a spiritual depth, and the choice of a joyful deliverance at any moment! I’m so glad now, to be that ‘sensitive’.

be·gin·ning 1 :The process of being brought into being; a start.

If you need to, begin again. If you screw up, no matter how big; if you have a new minute, a new second; you have an opportunity; begin again.

The word is hopeful and filled with potential. Each moment, mixed with a shake of humility, a scoop of willingness, and a heaping handful of trust, has the power to make intention become concrete change! I am aware of how much I am surrounded by ethereal support, divine assistance and angelic strength and sadly how little I activate this assistance in the practicality of my life.

I am a nail biter; have been since I was a little child and have only quit a few times for no longer than a year. I have tried most all approaches to quitting except asking for help from spirit. “Of myself I can do nothing”. I’m sure my hesitancy is driven by the fact that I know, if I were to enlist the powerful force of spirits help, I would in fact succeed – yes; fear of letting go! Even though nail biting no longer serves me, and has no practical place in my life, it is change nonetheless. Arnold Bennett said, “Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts”.

So I begin again. I first ask for the humility, to ask for help; and then, the grace to receive it.

While writing this post, I was informed that my wonderful Great Auntie Ellen passed away at 9:15 tonight. She was 98. Thank you Auntie Ellen, for the moments in my childhood you made joyful. Thank you for your touch, your jokes and for the magic of your pennies 😉 You are remembered for your light and humor. I am truly happy for you tonight, as you take pleasure in the Divine love of your new beginning.


I can still hear her say this one:

Knock knock!
Who’s there?
Little old lady?
Little old lady who?
Hey! I didn’t know you could yodel!

Haiku! Gazuntite ;)

Two wonderful words I wish to meld together. One, a poem and the other a German term for “good health” often heard after a sneeze. This post is an activity I hope you will join me in!

There are many stressful images, stories, events and people arround lately. When I look over the span of my 42 years so far I have faced and seen many things; from my daughter’s open heart surgery to the loss of a dear friend to cancer (xoxo SB), car accidents, addictions, adoptions, abuse, divorce and the like. Some of these things have surrounded and woven in and out of my life and the lives of those around me. You would think us a ‘glum lot’ – but nope! Even when times are tough there is much love and growth a brewing. There is perspective to be had and the best place I know to gain some is in the moment. Yep . . . it’s simple!

Every moment holds the power to create, inspire and uplift. Every single second, if I am truly present, is competely free from fear of the past or future, free from worry and the like. Free from my need to control and free from a distorted ego. Not only is it free from that which does not serve me it holds an enormity of WONDER, CONNECTION and AWE!

A Haiku has many rules and disciplines but I will not go into them here. The basics are 3 lines of 5 syllables, 7 syllables, 5 syllables. I present the Idea of Haiku to you because, for me, Haiku is about bringing to life a single moment in time. It’s about the art of stillness and observation, awareness and mindfulness. A Haiku often involves an animal, a tree, the wind or some other aspect of nature. Your your job, should you decide to accept it, is to find one online, or write one yourself and post it here for all to see and enjoy. I have complete faith that it is living in the moment that will bring us collectively to healing and ‘good health’.

I will go first. Many Haiku are joined by a picture, painting or drawing. I wrote one around a photo I took this past year. Enjoy!

A thunderstorm’s rain

has wet the sand at my feet

revealing a precious heart.